Thursday, August 23, 2012

Finding Greatness


For the last few weeks, I have felt as if I were in a wrestling match. 


I have struggled to find words to describe the emotional turmoil that has been churning inside.

I have struggled to meet the high expectations of my bosses, and the even higher expectations I have of myself.  

I have struggled with my loved ones, as we try to accept some of the unexpected curveballs which life has been throwing our way, things which no one has control over.

I have struggled to balance my time between the things I NEED to do and the things I WANT to do.

I have struggled to breathe, to keep my head above the combined and sometimes overwhelming stress of August show month and school assignments.

I have struggled to fight fears and heartache, emotional repercussions to events.  

I have struggled to clamp down on the leaking pipe that is threatens to burst from within after long rough days and even longer nights.

I have struggled to maintain a positive outlook on rainy days, both literally and figuratively.

I even struggled with writing this post.

Because, to be painfully honest... it's not easy to admit that I'm struggling.

Everyone wants to be the one who has it all under control... the one who strolls by other madly rushing people, hand in pocket, smiling and carefree, whose life seems to be so effortlessly smooth-sailing.

But the truth is, it isn't always that easy.  Reality won't let anyone get away with a "free lunch." 

We feel pain, heartache, disappointment, stress, and fear, howbeit in varying degrees.... and we have to understand that it is all a part of being human and living life.

The thing is....
If we have not experienced the pain of losing, we will not relish the triumph of winning.
If we do not feel stress when trying, we would not appreciate the sweet release of success.
If we do not face challenges, we will never see the need to rise to the occasion.

My big boss's message to the sales force for this month has echoed Nike's theme:
FIND YOUR GREATNESS.

I  watched the video of a little boy taking a deep breath before jumping off the high platform into a swimming pool, and another one of a young baseball player, handicapped but still playing - and WINNING. 


Both of them struggled too with their own fears, just as I have been struggling.   But they overcame the barriers, and found their greatness.

And I can will too.   

I've survived Hellweek last week and I'm into the last lap of August.  At a time when we are counting down by the hours, I have to stay focused on the goals which have been set for me.


When friends ask me, "Are you alright?"  I always reply with a smile, "I'll be fine." 

No, I may not feel OK now, and I'm not necessarily having the time of my life.   
But I will be strong, I will pick myself up, and I WILL be fine. 

2 comments:

  1. *hugs* good to read this from and know that you will be fine! :) Life hands us some pretty heavy stuff sometimes, huh? and there are times where we get overwhelmed and we even fail. I can totally relate to the statement that sometimes the higher expectations we place on ourselves can be the hardest. I've been there. It is ok to struggle; important to have grace for others who also struggle, and love, always love.

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  2. You can do it! *HUGS* I believe in you.

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