Friday, January 20, 2012

Find Positive Infinity (or die trying)

Earlier this evening, my friend asked me, "How do you stay positive in the final quarter?"

He was talking about the final quarter of FX's financial year '11, Jan - Mar 2012. We are faced with crazy targets, figures so big it would blow your mind. And we have a matter of WEEKS to fulfill them.

How do you make numbers on paper (dreams) into signatures on contracts (reality)?

I tried to answer him, scraping the bottom of the barrel for motivational factors: personal goals, the incentive trip to Turkey, drinking sessions with friends... He gave me credit for trying.

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I'm home,
dead tired,
sitting in front of my lappy at 1AM,
trying to strategize,
clearing work before the CNY holidays officially kick off tomorrow night...

So I guess it's a pretty bad time to check my newly launched school schedule, isn't it? Because the looks of it is not making me feel any better AT ALL.....

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Now I need to the question back to my friend: How am I going to SURVIVE the next three months?

I am scared. Trembling. The weeks ahead are going to be one hell of a roller-coaster ride.

Where am I going to find enough time to work, let alone study??
Will striving for good grades cost me the sacrifice of my personal work goals?
How will I balance my work-school-play with such an insane calendar?

There's going to be drastic changes,
new experiences,
emotional challenges,
stressful moments,
relationships to be handled,
pushing of the physical limits,
mental stretching,
occasions to rise to.

Will I be able to do it/handle everything/come out of this alive???

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I don't have the answer to that, just like I don't have the answer to so many other questions.

But I do know these 3 things:

1) I have got to stay positive and hold on to my dreams
2) No matter how tough - I will do my best, take things one step at a time, and work hard to realize those dreams
3) I must never think of giving up

I believe that we humans are uniquely created with the ability to "rise to the occasion." When we are pushed to the limits, somehow somewhere within, we will still find the extra reserve strength to run the final lap, to touch that peak, to hang on. We were born to face challenges, and to become better people because of it.

Mt. Everest is looming ahead - that great big monster of 2 and a half more months.

I'm gonna hold my head up, take a deep breath, and start the climb.

**She gets to rest at the "base camp" of Mt Everest during CNY holidays - KL & Kyushu, here I come!:)**