Saturday, December 25, 2010
My Christmas Present
Friday, December 3, 2010
A Glimpse at the Next Chapter - Back to School
Thursday, November 25, 2010
RIP, Nacho
You entertained us with your tricks and various dog activities.
You begged for bread with those big brown eyes of yours.
You were sure to be found in the middle of the most happening location at home.
You always responded meekly to the words, "Nacho, OUT!"
You were a part of our lives, for seven years.
You were FAMILY.
None of us foresaw that you would be taken away from us so abruptly, but we know you are now up there in heaven surrounded only with happiness and no pain. Take care of my baby Misty for me, and don't bully her too much.
And in case you didn't see it already, here's some messages for you from the rest of the family:
http://facebook.com/?w2m#/profile.php?id=575965076
We'll miss you, dude.
**Without Nacho and Misty, the house feels...childless.**
Thursday, November 11, 2010
If You Can Swim When Right in Front of you Is a Tsunami...
Today, there were customers to call and see and attend to, all asking for attention at the same time.
Today, I had to drive from one end of the island to the other.
Today, I wanted to throw my hands up in the air, tear my hair out, cry in frustration.
And then I chanced upon an email sent by my brother, which enclosed a long-beloved poem.
And I stopped struggling.
Took a deep breath.
Stared up at the tsunami, the wall of work, which was waiting to swallow me up.
Smiled.
And started swimming for the shore.
One lap at a time.
While the familiar lines of the poem which i many years ago etched into my memory, rang in my head, reminding me...
If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools.
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!
**she is carrying her baby niece Kayla**
Sunday, November 7, 2010
The Power of Prayer (On a Hilarious Note)
"Girls, you know what??" She gushed.
We open our eyes to peer up at her sleepily.
"The bad ache I was having in my lower back yesterday was gone this morning when I woke up! Now it's coming back just a little bit, but I think the fellow GB teachers who prayed for me really helped!"
"Oh..so that means that our prayer is not effective la, only the GB teacher's prayers are," I replied cheerfully.
"No la, not that. But now my lower back has no more pain, but my middle back is experiencing some strain now."
"I think if like that, then next time ask them not to pray until so specific la. Just ask them to cover your whole back with prayer, so that the pain won't travel up and down!"
**She is telling herself that just because it hurts to smile doesn't mean you stop smiling.**
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Sweet Twenti-Wan Moments
After being super-duper full from the sumptious Dim Sum of The Imperial Restaurant, we took a leisure walk... I had no idea where we were going... and ended up at...
It was the perfect place for just the two of us to sit and chat while adding to our intake of uncalled-for calories.
Friday, October 22, 2010
COURAGE
Take all my vicious words
And turn them into something good
Take all my preconceptions
And let the truth be understood
Take all my prized possessions
Leave only what I need
Take all my pieces of doubt
And let me be what's underneath
Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway
We all have excuses why
Living in fear something in us dies
Like a bird with broken wings
It's not how high he flies,
But the song he sings
Courage is when you're afraid,
But you keep on moving anyway
Courage is when you're in pain,
But you keep on living anyway
It's not how many times you've been knocked down
It's how many times you get back up
Courage is when you've lost your way,
But you find your strength anyway
Courage is when you're afraid
Courage is when it all seems grey
Courage is when you make a change,
And you keep on living anyway
You keep on moving anyway
You keep on giving anyway
You keep on loving anyway
**She has decided that the iphone is life-style-changing**
Monday, October 11, 2010
The Final Countdown
It's a little queer to sit here with the knowledge that I am spending the last few moments of my life as a twenty year old.
Monday, October 4, 2010
Just Right.
Well, this is one of my triggers.
As a kid, I loved it whenever I had this for a snack. Whether I was at home or in the classroom with the rest of my generation, I was thrilled whenever someone pulled out this little treat.
The part I liked best of course was the hard sugary icing on top. It looked pretty, like a demure little flower perched on a rock. And it tasted GOOD, too. I would bite off the top from the biscuit and eat it with a relish, savouring the sweetness.
The bottom part I would then discard with disdain. It was plain, colourless, TASTELESS. It didn't draw my attention the way the pretty icing did.
Why do people make such plain old biscuits? I would wonder. Why don't they just make the top part?
But after several such instances of snitching the icing and tossing the biscuit, I would get tired of the sweetness that I had liked in the first place and quickly lose interest. It was too much sugariness on its own till I could no longer appreciate its taste.
....
Fifteen years later, I am eating the biscuits again, snacking while I watch football with my brothers and friends.
And suddenly I realize why you have to eat the biscuit as a whole - not just the top, or the bottom alone.
Because together, they taste just right.
They complement each other. The plain biscuit accentuates the pleasant appeal of the coloured icing, and the icing in her turn lends sweetness to the biscuit that is not there on its own.
It’s a mini reflection of life.
Too many good things at one go becomes no longer good. If Life was over-saturated with happy moments and good things all at once, we would no longer be able to appreciate it after awhile. At the start, we would enjoy the sweetness, happy and pleased. But eventually our sensitivity to its pleasant flavour would be dulled. We’d get tired of the good things, losing interest and pleasure in its taste.
At the same time, if Life were constantly plain and uninteresting like the little round biscuit, we would be just as prone to murmur and complain. The dull staple would be viewed in the same way we view tedious days – with contempt. Nothing to look forward to. No sweet moments to add flavour to the unexciting existence. Boring.
But when Life is peppered with a little of both, they balance off each other perfectly. The fun happening days lend an existence to the other slow-moving moments, and the gentle peaceful days give us a breather so that we can recharge and properly appreciate the energetic moments.
Together, they are just right.
**She thinks the last two weeks have been too long, and is looking forward to tomorrow**
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
So What if It Hurts Me?
Or, the fear of pain.
And much as we hate to admit to any signs of weakness revealed by the paralyzing emotion of fear, I gotta say I DEFINITELY have Agliophobia.
It's not something I think about often.
Considering the fact that we're young and fit and relatively healthy, we do not frequently encounter run-ins with that Fear Factor, Pain. It's not like we cut ourselves on purpose, or smack our knees against sharp furniture edges alot (unless you're a bit of a klutz...like me), or have to go for major ops. So no, it doesn't cross my mind alot.
Until this morning, when I accidentally gave myself a scissor cut while doing something.
And the first thought that sprang into my mind was: "Oh shucks! It'sgonnahurtit'sgonnahurt!"
My heartbeats picked up speed, just a tad.
I paused and braced myself martyr-like for the pain to accompany the smudge of red I saw on my fingers.
And felt nothing.
And looked down at my hand again, puzzled.
Ermm.. is something wrong with me? Isn't it supposed to hurt? Did I turn into an angel overnight and didn't know?
But weirdly enough, this was one cut that didn't hurt. A little discomfort, yes, but not the throbbing pain I envisioned.
And as I went my way, recalling the several "cutting" instances I experienced when younger which probably contributes to my little phobia problem now, it made me wonder if this fear of getting hurt physically reflects subtly on the relationships we have with others.
Does the instinctive recoil from disappointment or heartache cause barriers in the way we relate to those around us?
Does the dread of being taken advantage of hold us back from giving more freely of ourselves?
Does it cause us to "take caution when it comes to love" with valid reason?
They say, Once bitten, twice shy.
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Multi-tasking
Em: "See if you can walk with your eyes closed and count the number of steps you're taking and at the same time remember a memory."
Kim: "Actually that wouldn't be too difficult, because counting in your mind is easy, quite automatic."
Em: "Oh...And wiggle your arms like a goose."
Apparently, exhaustion makes the mind think up crazy things.
**She stood watching the tears roll down the cheeks of the stranger in the mirror**
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Love is Accepting the Person for who They Are, not Who You Think you Want Them to Be
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Question::
If you have been disappointed three times in a row because something you highly anticipated or looked forward didn't work out time and again...
would you...
a) still continue to hope at the next given opportunity?
b) secretly hope but outwardly show no excitement?
c) kill all ideas of hope, excitement, or anticipation because you don't ever want to get disappointed in that way again?
**She has one last day to push up her Personal Best record**
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
From the Corner of Urban Bites
I've ordered the lunch set on the menu(half of which I don't even know how to eat!) and have my laptop open in front of me for working purposes (and so on and so forth).
It's the PERFECT spot.
It's quiet, it's cosy, and - wonder of wonders, it even has WI-FI!!!
Which means I can surf the net for my work. And-and...yeah, for my work.
So. Now that I finally have a chance to update my blog after being virtually MIA online for the last two months or so, let me give a brief recap of what's been going on. Despite all the changes that has been taking place in and around me, of the following three things you can be certain:
1) I am still very much alive (and healthy? well, I'm currently on a 7-day course of antibiotics for a bad flu, if that's what you're asking. But other than that, I'm doing perfectly fine:)
2) I am enjoying my job. (Yes, enjoying. Not the stress to close orders, not the ache in the legs after a whole day of walking around in heels, not the hole in the pocket after forking out $20 cab fare upon reaching a customer's ulu location. But yes, I'm enjoying the challenges, the dynamics of a job that allows you to grow in mind and spirit, and of course - last but DEFINITELY not least, the monetary fruits I can reap from the labour that is put into my work.)
3) The days are still passing WAY too fast for my liking. (Think weekdays rushing around from appointment to appointment, weekday evenings burnt in office, weekends spent physically busy with family activities while mentally still thinking about how to tackle objections from a particular customer or how to present a case to another customer, and weekend nights waking up in the middle of the night thinking it is already Monday morning!)
Deadlines, weekly and monthly targets, phone calls and appointments all tossing around in my head like a pile of laundry in the dryer...so, yup.
It's not been all work alone, though. In just the last two months or so, there's also been the addition of another darling little niece, two 'almost-family' members, and a whole bunch of new friends and acquaintances to my life! Oh, and homecooked food has recently tasted even better than usual, because I rarely get it anymore due to an unpredictable work schedule.
Anyway, here's a quote I found which seems to sum up this post pretty well:
Life is too short to wake up in the morning with regrets.
So love the people who treat you right, and forget the people who don't.
And believe that everything happens for a reason.
If you get a chance, take it.
If it changes your life, let it.
No one said it would be easy, just that it would be worth it.
**She needs some salt water. Badly. It's been way. too. long.**
Saturday, July 31, 2010
In love with my darling niece Kayla
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
I would dance, yes
Would you dance, if I asked you to dance?
Would you run, and never look back?
Would you cry, if you saw me crying?
And would you save my soul, tonight?
Would you tremble, if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh? Oh please tell me this
Now would you die, for the one you love?
Hold me in your arms, tonight
I can be your hero, baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
Would you swear, that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie? Would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
I don't care you're here, tonight
I can be your hero, baby
I can kiss away the pain
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
Oh, I just wanna hold you
I just wanna hold you, oh yeah
Am I in too deep? Have I lost my mind?
Well I don't care you're here, tonight
I can be your hero, baby
I can kiss away the pain, oh yeah
I will stand by you forever
You can take my breath away
I can be your hero, I can kiss away the pain
And I will stand by you, forever
You can take my breath away
You can take my breath away
An' I can be your hero
**She's smiling at the good memories and looking forward to more**
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Did you just call me... B-LOB?
But it's never too late for pictures, especially when it was one of my best dive trips EVER.
So here goes!
On the very treacherous wooden-planks-with-a-few-missing-planks jetty which we had to walk over in almost pitch black night.
The view onboard the deck of Beach Boys.
The dive site for our checkout dive on Saturday morning.
Our impromptu snorkeling excursion
Enjoying the sunset
Donut games on the deck, courtesy of Andrew
They dumped me in the ice-box!!!
We talked... we laughed..
We suntanned...
We visited the outer reefs ofTioman...
Sunday, June 20, 2010
The Broken Egg
**She had a great time celebrating 'surface interval' with the Blue Reef gang at ICB**